Inspiration...

Do you ever feel like you need to be motivated to do ANYTHING at all? I mean, I know that I have so much to be thankful for (TRULY), but there are days when I just can't seem to muster up the motivation to want to do anything. I get caught in my rut of self-loathing, self-hatred and self-fat shaming and I really don't want to see the light of day. I go through the motions of my normal daily routine, smile through the self pity, and look forward to just crawling back in bed and going to sleep.

One thing that I do that always makes me feel better is volunteer at my church. I greet people hello and goodbye as they come and go. It is a really contemporary church, so I am in jeans and a t-shirt....just being me. It is the one time when no matter how bad my day is or where my head is at, I leave it at the door and pour myself into (hopefully) being a light for anyone who walks through my doors. It is a game changer every other Sunday when I get to serve.

Last month there was a 3-part series that really resonated with me. Each of these speakers has an incredible story to tell of howe they have taken their sad, broken circumstances and allowed God to do unimaginable things through them. For me, being a creative person, Part 1 really stuck with me. Visually I was glued to watching how he told his story through Photoshop, and then hearing his actual story....wow. It re-inspired me to do all that I can to build this website, to try and reach other people who I know suffer in the same ways that I do. I wasn't brought this far to stop now. I just needed a little push....and this message was my push.

Let me know what you think....